♥Happy birthday to me.myself♥

现在时间是3.42am
我还是在精神的状态
今天，也是我的“牛一”
wish myself happy birthday....

生日本来是件很开心的事
但这是我第一年觉得生日是难过的
也许今年发生很多事情吧
生日现在对我来说也算是普通的日子了
我.....老了吗？
也或许今年的生日少了他...我有点会不习惯吧!!!!
朋友请放心...我ok de...只是突然想起罢了!!!


haiz....身边的姐妹个个都在emo-ing...
害我也变emo....
刚在和yh通电话
聊了聊...我突然的哭了起来...yh也一样
她替我们难过
我竟然在生日当天哭了...
有史以来第一次!!!!


2009年对我而言是很不好很衰的一年
希望在来临的2010年会是美好的一年吧

希望我的姐妹们
永远都开开心心的!!!


okies...gonna sleep d...finally feel sleepy d
to be continue..........

♥The day is cuming soon♥

i'm turning 20 years old in tis very cuming thursday
highlight that pls...
20???
haiz...out of my teens and into my twenties...
how sad am i!!!
i just dun think that it's the time for me to be a 20 years old leh....
what should i call myself???
a girl?
or woman?
lady perhaps?
oh NO!


everything come into my mind now...
many things....
how i wished to return to past....
or to recorrect things that i've done...
or to appreciate precious moments that will be taken away by time...
oh time, i just hate u!!!!


i cant really put thoughts into words now....
i dont know what's in my mind and what should i write....
it keeps jumping from one to another....


there's alot of things i've learned throughout the year....
sad, happy, ups, downs, hopes... and i've gone thru it with laughters and tears...
there's alot of difficulties....
here and there.... all around u....
tears kept flowing....
trying to burn up the spirits,
to tell ur heart that u can go thru this....
to listen to ur friends that,
"if u can go thru this, thn there is nothing else u cnt do."

it is all over now...
how u wished that time will pass faster before,
now u wish that u can return to the past....
when u're leaving a place and moving on,
u just hope that there is a u-turn for u to run back to the place...
ishhh....why must we grow up???
face problems and obstacles,

where it keeps forcing tears to exist in ur eyes....

but that's life...
four alphabets that bring different meaning to all of us...
some may succeed to move on...
but some may fail to do so...

and me?
what will happen to me?
what's the future hold for me?
btw....i jz wish have a simple life to me only~~~
tat's wat i wish for!!!


tis year birthday ady not same like previous years anymore
But still...i will enjoy my birthday v all my fren!!!!

♥the 1st time♥

jz now chat v my dear yh....
i express out the feeling in my heart....
phewww....finally i told her tat tis paiseh secret thing...
cuz tis secret thing i keep inside my heart so many days d...

arghhhh....tis is the very 1st time i'm being like tat...
i really cant control myself leh...
i bcum crazy ady....
wat should i do now???
i wish i hope it would be a miracle in one day...perhaps????
but i gt the strong feeling....tat is IMPOSSIBLE!!!!!

dear...really thx to you ya...
listen the rubbish wat had i told u jz now...
feeling good now=)

the nitez really leave a good memory to me...
i will oways remember!!!!

♥Pls be honest with me♥

the blogger♥

i believe in those words...
y we hv to lie when telling the truth is much more better...
eventhough, sometimes the truth hurts so much, but it's better than tell a lie...
well, when u tell a lie, it will then lead you to tell another lie n another n another n it will goes on n on....
in other words, a lie leads to another lie...


but what if u tell the truth...
it stops there...
just make urself ready to face the truth...
because some of the truth is more painful than being stab with a knife...
but later, you will feel much more better because you know the truth...
at least you won't be hiding in the shadow because the truth is being kept secret...

right??

at least you know the truth and not the lies....


do u agree with me??


YES!
i admit that i tell lies sometimes, but i'm just a human being who make mistakes...
n i come to realize that the truth is better being told than hiding it...
n i am still trying to make myself a better person by not telling lies...

and please,
to whom it may concern,
please be honest with me...
i just need to know the truth that lies behind all your words....

the ♥five besties♥ in my life=)

they cheer me up when I am sad,
they are always by my side to help me whenever I am in trouble,
they will be there to share my happiness when I am happy,
they will be there to support me when I am struggling and the list goes on and on.

♥left 11 days~a new brand year♥

Time past really really fast.In the blinking of an eye,new year 2010 is around the corner.What i had done for tis year 2009,i kept wondering in my mind.A lots of ques bombarded in my mind b4.Well,I did not very enjoy in year 2009 as well...had a lots of things did happen in tis year...IS LOTS!!!!tat y,i DISLIKE tis year,i wish tis year can pass very very fast!!!Btw,with the mixed feeling,i'm longing for the arrival of brand new year 2010.I hope tat everything will be better in next year.*praying hard*Everything tat happend in tis year should be ended d...no more sadness for next year!!!god bless me pls~~~=D

so guys~~~any plan for tis cuming christmas eve?new year eve?n how about me???haha...of course impossible will stay at hm countdown la...*sry ya sum of my fren tat i rejected for not join u all countdown on tat nitez ,cuz i will join my fren...=)*anyway...i wish u all have a happy celebration ya!!!

Jingle bell Jingle bell!!!!

i wan christmas present!!!!==
p/s:haha...i m waiting u for the x'mas present ya...blek!!!!lalala~~~

要幸福和快乐，其实很简单!!!
我学会了~~~

♥unbelieveable♥

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♥Cheer up my dear♥

It has been a long long time since i updated.
Sorry to those who visited my blog many times but always seeing the same old posting.
Thousand apologies!!!
I am very happy recently with life progressing positively
bcuz i did it finally with sumthing tat make me so damn emo-ing in the last few month*i no blame u seriously,as long as u happy!!!*
I so wanna share my happiness with all my besties....
when all of us can meet up 2gether again...i m looking forward for it...
I MISS U all so much!!!!


Lastly~~~~
To my dear:
I know how hard it is to lose someone you love dearly.
And I know how hard it is to crave for love.
As u noe i had suffer it b4 too.....
dear,i dunnoe y u still wan to care and wan be bak 2gether v him again?
you know tat is sumthing problem for you n him,why still continue with it?
he is completely awful to you,treats u like crap n etc...
it's tat worth for you to get bak v him?i can do it y u cant????
i noe i cant give u any opinion...cuz i m oso a loser..
anyway my dear...wat i wan to say for u is...
i'm oways be here v u whenever u nid me...
Dear..i jz wan to see the previous time of u....
i wan u be happy oways!!!!!

[When you know that the person is not the one for you but you still love him/her,let him/her go to find their happiness cuz that is another way of showing your love.]

Do you guys agree with it?!?!